Well, a roofer just left our house, and our savings are being depleted once again.
A little while ago we noticed our bathroom wall looked funny where it met the ceiling. It slowly got weirder and weirder- not moldy, but sort of... warped. We had someone look at it- it was leaking where our chimney connects to the roof. The roofers hadn't done a good job making the seal waterproof. Mr Pug's connection from work came today and gave us an estimate. Luckily, there is not mold, but of course that doesn't mean we can put it off!
I've been letting myself get really stressed lately. I have always clenched and grinded my teeth, but lately it has gotten to the point of causing headaches daily. I can pretend I'm not stressed- but my body cannot!
We have always been good about saving money, and emergencies have always come up that made us glad we are good about it. Unfortunately, we cannot save double now that we're getting married! The TONS of money we saved when we first got engaged all went towards living when I lost my job. Then the money we saved after that went towards some financial issues we ran into. Just as we are back to saving up- leaky roof! Things like this have me BEGGING for it to be post-wedding time. When our money can actually be spent when needed, without guilt or worry.
Each problem that has come along in the past year, we have been able to immediately solve (financially at least) from our savings. That is something that would normally make any sane person happy! But each time it makes me feel like we are starting from square one with wedding planning again.
Does anyone else feel frustration, almost resentment having to put money towards a wedding? Seeing friends whose parents pay, or hearing someone complain that they need to save two thousand dollars (gasp!) for their share, makes me angry. I know, I know- they are lucky! But how can you hear about a parent just giving their daughter 30 grand (this is a true story!) and then not feel jealous, and also almost hostile? I have this horrible feeling that, closer to the wedding, if anyone who was pretty much gifted a wedding so much as insinuates that something about my wedding isn't right I might flip a table in their general direction. So, so very Jersey of me. I am simply doing the best I can with what I have.
Please tell me I'm not alone!